*takes a long dramatic breath* Wow. 2016 is almost over. Thank goodness!
I've been away from blogging and posting online for a while. I've uploaded a couple of videos here and there but I haven't been consistent. In the past week I've just been reading and staying in my bed after my exams. My stress and anxiety levels are now at a position that is not life threatening, but now the fear is creeping in because the next 2 years of my life will determine what direction my life is heading. In one of my orientation classes, my teacher's message that the next two years will make or break our lives was not helpful at all.
For now I'm so happy for the holidays. The Christmas light, hot chocolate and Christmas songs are distracting me from the daunting thought that I'm not smsrt enough or studying hard enough for the future I want. I can't wait to put up the tree and spend time with family. Even the thought of not having any money left after Christmas shopping is appealing to me. The hard thing about shopping for my family and friends is that they all deserve mansions and to wake up with hundreds of roses carefully placed around their rooms, but all I can afford is a gift from the dollar section.
I've been away from blogging and posting online for a while. I've uploaded a couple of videos here and there but I haven't been consistent. In the past week I've just been reading and staying in my bed after my exams. My stress and anxiety levels are now at a position that is not life threatening, but now the fear is creeping in because the next 2 years of my life will determine what direction my life is heading. In one of my orientation classes, my teacher's message that the next two years will make or break our lives was not helpful at all.
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| This is a polaroid from a recent Christmas Party I went to with my friends! We're all so glad to have this time to recharge for the upcoming school year. BTW this is my friend Rachel's hand. :) |
For now I'm so happy for the holidays. The Christmas light, hot chocolate and Christmas songs are distracting me from the daunting thought that I'm not smsrt enough or studying hard enough for the future I want. I can't wait to put up the tree and spend time with family. Even the thought of not having any money left after Christmas shopping is appealing to me. The hard thing about shopping for my family and friends is that they all deserve mansions and to wake up with hundreds of roses carefully placed around their rooms, but all I can afford is a gift from the dollar section.
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| The holiday season is always full of laughs! On the left is my friend Monique (who made a cameo in one of my youtube videoes!), in the centre is my friend Donna and on the right is me! |
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| This looks like a cheesey chrismtas card, lmao. |
I'm now taking time to look after myself and manage my time. My holiday homework is ready to completed according to my priority schedule and my life now has some semblance of organisation. I'm a person prone to being stressed out and I acknowledge that. I'm trying to take steps to ensure that I can cope and can perform to the best of my ability. In retrospect I'm suprised I was even able to do as well as I did this semester. At the moment I think that self care and self love are very underrated. It's all too easy to love and care for others while forgetting to do the same for yourself. Please look after yourself right now and don't neglect your health. The holidays are a chance for to to heal and rejuvenate.
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| 'Tis the season to be jolly! |
Please take the holidays as an opportunity to rest and spend time with family because I know that I definitely will. This is going to be a great chance to have a break from the struggles of life (aka the crap storm that was 2016) and focus on the important things in life: family, friends, love and chocolate pudding. I'm so grateful for the holidays right now and I'm looking forward to the insanely hot Australian Christmas!
Happy holidays!
-xox Kellie
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